Reckless Abandonment

Ever fall in love so completely you find yourself losing the sense of who you are ? Sacrificing all you are and stand for ? Seeing the mistakes pile up but being so sure of your conviction? Taking a bold stand to pursue this love to see it to its perfect end some might say. Sadly,this kind of love towards man ,usually leaves you longing and hollow at the end of the day. It makes you feel lost and empty like a part of you has been gushed out . You might even come in time to hate love or the idea of love because as human as we are, we turn to be a bit extreme in our emotions and the giving of it.

Now, let me tell you a story . There was a girl who wondered why everytime she thought she found love she had to watch it turn sour, not because she didn’t give it her all. She always gave the best she could, she listened, she was supportive, the whole ordeal really but what she seeked wasn’t what was given at the end. There was a sesnse of being whole, and she craved it. She knew she’d been blessed with a bottomless pit of love to pour out to all those around her but she as a person knew she wasn’t whole. She didn’t feel fulfilled, she seeked approval from those around her, those she deemed worthy but that’s didn’t seem to help either.

She woke up oneday from a nightmare in the middle of the night and eventhough she hadn’t called her friend in a while,the first thing she did was call out His name and tell him to come around and just then, he leaves everything and rushes to her. When He arrived, she felt a rush of peace and happiness and comfort and protection flood into her and she snuggled into the most pleasant sleep she’d had in a while. It left her in deep thoughts considering what kind of love this was and why she felt such a source of peace and wholeness from this kind of love He gave. She wondered what will make Him drop everything and just come to her even though she had been neglecting him. She begun to compare him to the others who claimed to love her. She had felt love from people but she realized this was surely different and definetly one she hadn’t worked for,considering she liked to ignore him,not consciously though but she did anyway.

She then realized she was loved with the most desparate of loves, she was craved by Him. Just a 5 minute chat with Him left her feeling a sense of love and peace and just sheer happiness. She decided to turn the tables and try to atleast fall in love with him too besides he understood her, all her plans, all she longed to be, he kept her secrets, he knew her weakness and flaws yet he still loved her. With him no matter how sour their disagreements were, leaving his presence always left her being a better person, filled with confidence, peace and happiness.

She decided to take all she had, all she could offer to him,her dreams,her future, her profession, her heart, her very being and everything she considered to be precious to her. She sealed it all in a jar and went to meet him. She broke it all and bared herself , with nothing to hide and nothing to lose. She decided to be reckless one last time,after all she’d done it a couple of times for the wrong people.  Her decision left those around her shocked at the level of recklessness. They told her how she’d gone too far this time and how she needed to live and enjoy the life instead. She knew the move looked reckless and required her to sacrifice more than she ever thought she would need to but she was so sure He was the one that could fully complete her. And surely since she bared it all, she’s had no regrets. He’s not changed now that he has her fully, she still has that new love feeling and bubbling, she still swoons over him and he does same over her.

He gave her letters he had written for her with her in mind as he wrote them,for whenever she needed to hear from him,he gave her the best gift, a comforter to keep her comforted always and he was never busy to meet up or talk to her you know. He was the perfect lover. And obviously her love for each Him only kept growing and His love was deeper, sweeter and endless for her.

In the story you just read, you see her go from being incomplete to being complete. She went from feeling unloved to feeling loved, the name of the lover that made all this possible for her is Jesus Christ and oh how beautiful that name is.  The letters he wrote to her is the bible, the best comforter he gave to her is the holy spirit and his direct line is prayer. This is the love that deserves to be desparately wanted and be easily reckless in . With no fears of being left, alienated or fears of love turning sour or plainly not working. The thing with this story is , everyone can have this kind of love though it will require you to make sacrifices you might not necessarily like but in the end it’s going to be for your good. Jesus Christ loves you before you even before you think about reciprocating His love. It’s up to you to accept his love.Be recklessly abandoned in his love for you,it makes you complete.

.play this song and let love flood in

play this song and let love flood in

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